Still this?

Something happened last Saturday and made me leave a friends house in the middle of the night pissed off. Its not horrible but its something that angered me enough to leave. All I needed was an apology from said friend to smooth things over. Instead what I've gotten are the most juvenile actions and in return a simple I'm sorry is no longer going to cut it.

We will call this person Fred. He's been a pretty good friend of mine for about a year and we've gotten really close since say October. He's rather lazy but helped me move back into Berkeley house which took 12 hours. He also was the only person to check on me everyday when I was sick and even better he stayed with me for a week during my tonsil recovery. I was currently helping him redo his resume and finding jobs for him to apply for. He was basically a talk to everyday friend.

But last Saturday Fred got drunk and did something really stupid. So I left. Sunday I expected and apology but I got none. Monday and Tuesday past, still nothing. A friend of mine asked me Wednesday what Fred had done and said Fred was racking his brain trying to figure it out. I told him my story and how all I needed was him to say I'm sorry and life could resume. So this friend told Fred and Fred did nothing. Friend even told Fred he was being a jackass and Fred still did nothing. By the weekend Fred had taken to telling my good friends, who aren't in his circle, that I was mad at him for a reason he didn't understand and that I wasn't talking to him. One friend ask if he had tried calling me and Fred replied, 'nah I'm gonna let it run its course without me getting involved.' Awesome

What I'm getting at here is that I don't think a simple apology is gonna cut it anymore. I went from having a really good friend who had just mention how much he needed me in his life and how much he valued our friendship, to an arse who can't mumble 2 words. Pride now comes into play. Ohhh pride how you are a silly bastard. I have too much pride to contact him and say wtf. He has too much pride to admit to me and his friends he was in the wrong although he knows it. I hate giving up on friendships. Especially ones that I thought were pure and long lasting. He's such an awesome friend but I'm too damn proud to contact him and be the bigger man. I shouldn't have to and I won't.

You should know that Fred likes to randomly date this girl who I do not like. She cheated on him once, that he knows of, and that too me is end all. It seems when Fred is with this girl I don't exist. I get this a lot with my guy friends and since I have more guy friends than girl ones I get this often. Most aren't as bad as Fred. I know that Fred has been talking to to this girl and wonder if this is just part of the cycle. So the new question is do I answer the call in 2 months when she dicks him over? Normally I would and I'd gloat as Fred told me how I was right and so forth. But this time something is different. I don't want to answer it. But at the same time I keep checking my phone waiting for his call. But he isn't going to call.

I guess I'm just going to have to let this one play out and if/when the call comes see how I'm feeling then and go with it. I'm getting too old for this crap.

I need to move . . .