Sometimes when really good things happen I can't full enjoy them because in the back of my mind I am waiting for the bad times to come. I am always aware of the good and how it can turn terribly wrong. I am going to blame this on the fact that for years I was carefree and happy and then my dad got sick and life took this turn that I could never have imagined. It really sucks because sometimes, like right now, I just want to bask in all the good stuff that is happening.

Boo to my head for always trying to protect my heart.