Only just waking up

I have been sending out a lot of resumes these days. Not sure where any of it will lead me and I don't really care if I don't get the jobs, I just want to know one way or another. This whole waiting around, checking my email and cell phone constantly is frustrating. Just tell me.

Some marketing guru calls us the instant gratification generation. It's kind of annoying being part of this generation. I wish I had more patience but when it comes to my future, I don't.

I have pretty much assured myself that I am going to need to move to either LA or New York. I am not really pumped about the move, I like it here, but I need a change. I need to have something going for me. I have lived here 21 years and never had anything going for me. But when I lived away from here it seemed like things were going. Not sure exactly where they were going, but at least I was going. I really can't be sure that things will work out for me if I move, but it just seems that Saint Louis had it's chance with me, so now I need to play fair and give another city a chance.

I'm scared, I am not going to lie. As much as I want to move away for awhile both of those cities scare me. I just don't know what else to do. St. Louis starting losing its advertising steam years ago and right now it's pretty dead. I really like my major and am out of ideas. I could stay and continue to work where I am, but you only live once. If someone will hire me and take me away to a different land, scared or not, I think I will go. But then I start to think about it and wonder if I am crazy. Could I really go through with the move? I would like to think so, but who knows.

I just need something great to happen. I could also use a crystal ball.

Anything